-.-

2012-01-30T16:35:00.004+08:00

I swear I was over you. But why'd my heart stop when I saw you? Sigh

When I saw you.

2012-01-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

It was weird and awkward for us to see each other. Cause we haven't really gotten over each other. But I've got to admit, I miss you

2012-01-28T22:05:00.003+08:00

"My heart stopped when I saw you"

Annyeong! Hehe ~

So, today was a dull day? Hmmm woke up when lil sis was having her tuition in the living room. Went to Academy of Rock for lil sis's vocal lessons and I signed up for drums lesson. Hmmmmmm then to evertop for lunch and accompanied mum to shop for awhile at JP cuz she wanted to find a leather jacket for the "Search" Concert today. So, she showed me the one in Espirit. But thr were no sizes for her. BUT OMG I SAW A REALLY REALLY NICE ONE! But have to wait till feb to buy :( Then, went to G2000. No luck too, but a lil sad in thr too sighhhhhh :/ And then, we headed to NET. Whr she finally bought one! She wanted a black one, but thr wasn't any size that fits her so I told her to get the brown one, which is nicer. She said "Huh? Nice meh? Like not nice only!" And then when she tried "Eh ya! Not bad ah! Like cool!" Then in the end she bought it -......- bought dad a shirt too! But he couldn't fit it -.- CUZ OF HIS TUMMY LOL. Then ya, head back and till now, they're at the concert! Hahahahaha

K

2012-01-10T11:21:00.004+08:00

Yay, open house was a blast! Those who didn't come, really regret of their lives! Hahaha

Hehe hi! Been a different person these days! No emo nemo~~ Hehe, so yah! More cheerful, don't really care about who leaves my life, since those who leave aren't the important ones. So I shouldn't care? Yep, that's my mindset right now! ;)

Can't wait for year 2 sem 1! Excited for the modules! ^~^

2011-11-25T13:46:00.003+08:00

You left once, I was still there for you.

You left twice, I was still right there waiting for you.

You left me thrice, now I'm really gone.

2011-11-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

Each of the raindrops could represent how much I'm missing you each day.

2011-10-16T23:32:00.002+08:00

Been a very, very long time since I've blogged! Noone reads anyway! Haha

Ok, so yeah I thought I actually moved on. But the fact is, I'm still missing and thinking bout you. Sigh :(

So went to Minmin's place for kenduri just now. Had to wear scarf. LOL I look so weird! But aunts kept on saying that I look like mum and I look sweet. HAHAHA NO WAY. Then they're like telling me to wear. But, my heart's not yet opened and ready eh? Hmmmmmmmm. Don't know lah! Maybe yes? Maybe no? Haha anyway, after so much drama and crying today, our stomachs got empty so we had a feast too! Yum yum! So yeah, today was quite dramatic. Which makes me quite confused and puzzled but at the same time, happy to see mum's siblings being together. :-D

INFINITIEU!

2011-09-15T15:54:00.003+08:00

안녕! ㅋㅋㅋ

Haven't been blogging for awhile! Anyways, managing well now I guess? Got back on my feet again! And it's hari raya now! Yayy!

Been spazzing bout infinite eversince I've watched sesame player! Omg they're soso cute! Hahahahaha honestly, I prefer infinite's sesame player than mblaq's. Mblaq's kinda boring! Hahahaha Sungyeol and Woohyun are so notorious! Currently watching KwonOh couple! Hehehe but can't fine ep 2!!!! Booooooo! Gonna catch up on the taiwan dramas I've missed later on! ^~^ Anw, I really really hope my birthday wish does come true!!!!!!! So wanna go for 2PM's hands up asia tour in singapore so badly!!!!!!! PRETTY PRETTY PLEASEEEE!

Ok that's all I guess? Boring, yeah. Hahahaha kalkkae! ;)

SHOES SHOES SHOES!

2011-08-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

HEH!

Ok, so we decided to head to JB to buy some last min raya stuffs..... BUT we passed thru SG's immigration and heading to the msia side, and then it was bloody jammed! Dad was speeding like maxxxxxxxx! Then he took the right lane and immediately slowed down and looked out for the U-turn and we headed back to SG! Hahahaha. So we went to Jurong Point instead! Shopped for raya shoess! Yay got my anna nucci! Lil sis too! But hers kinda... errrrr... Hahaha I've to collect mine after 3 tml, sian! Break fast out with family just now, @ al-ameen bukit timah. OMG I tell you, I think they changed the management! The service and food totally cmi!!!! And saw Hydir Idris omg! He recognises meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! "syazakelley on twitter" Heheheheheheheheheheheeheh but cmi sister took photo of me and him totally not nice leh. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ then headed off home! Mum just baked double chocolate cookies yumyummmmmmmmmmmm!!!! DAMN NICE I TELL YOU!!!!

OMG H JUST LET ME HEAR TO HIS NEW SONGGGGGGGG! IT'S REALLY DAMN NICE! I CANNOT WAIT TILL HE RELEASES ITTTTTTTTTTTTTT! BUT THE LYRICS LIKE ABIT TOO HONEST, BUT IT'S STILL AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. MAYBE I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH. I, LOVE YOU TOO MUCH~ HEHEHEHEHEHE

2011-08-27T14:03:00.003+08:00

hehe kyaaaaaaaaaa!

Ok, so today woke super late today! Mum and dad went out to buy stuffs for raya. And now mum says we're going to JB later. YAYAYAYAY then after that mum's gonna bake more cookies when we come back! Today is awesomeeeeeee! And then tml will be shoes and bags(like finally!!!!!!!!) then mon prog UT, thennnnn spring clean the whole house and buy perfumesss! :D Hari Raya's gonna be awesome this yearrrrrr! ;) Hehehehe

2011-08-26T20:19:00.003+08:00

Moving on!

ok, so today was quite unproductive! Maths UT, which almost killed me(!!!!!!!!), was hard but manageable! Counted my marks, if no careless mistakes or whatsoever, I should have at least 18 marks deducted, which means the most I can get is a 52 out of 70. SIANNNNNNNZ! I don't wanna retake maths as my module again, pretty pleaseeee! Then headed home, rested for awhile then head out to JP's posb to accompany dad! And granny. Wah granny really grab my arm like she was squeezing my fats outtttt! Hahahaha then headed home. And here we are! Hahaha kinda boring right? I know! Oh yessss! Gave H a morning call today! Hehehe, but a lil late! He was still late for his UT! Lolllllllllll Monday give him early one lah! But last UT alrd! Lol nevermind he'll miss me more like that! Hohohohoho ^^ Oh and someone's being really arrogant and cold towards me. Huhhhhh, you want me to treat you that way, I will ok! Haha, okkkkkk done ranting! Last UT on monnnnnnn! Then RAYA RAYA RAYAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! Shoes and bags tml! Maybe contact lens on sunday! Hek hek hek I love mummy! <3 Ok nights! :D

2011-08-26T18:15:00.002+08:00

This what I'm kinda feeling right now, happy/sad? You can't tell cause I'm hiding it from my eyes.

2011-08-24T22:28:00.001+08:00

OKEY I THINK I'LL REALLY MOVE ON. BUT GIVE ME TIME. IT'S NOT AN OVERNIGHT CHANGE. SIGHHHHHHHHH! BUT WHATEVER, LEAST OF MY WORRIES. HOUSE ISN'T LIKE HEAVEN ANYMORE. UGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING ANYMORE. I JUST WANT IT TO END. I HATE HAVING TO EXPERIENCE THIS. FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE

2011-08-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

FUCK. MY. FUCKING. LIFE.

2011-08-24T14:53:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhh I miss ATV and Go-karting so much!!!!

Hi hi! Kinda just got back, thr're a million things to do but I just don't feel like doing! Just had science UT! Gahhh my A :'( So kns sighhhhhhhhh! Was late for UT too....... lol 5 mins, cause stupid laptop loaded damn bloody slow! Nothing special happened today, except that I woke up with a really sweet text! Hehehe, it made my day! ;) And then headed home while the rest went for lunch. I really wish fasting's over! Wanna lunch with them like we used to!! :( But went off with H then took separate trains. That's kinda all. Hahaha nothing much. Just typing everything cause I feel like sharing what happens in my day? And my emotions? Not like anyone cares anyway! Hehhhhhhhhhh, Nevermind just me and my own world. I'm happy with that! Lol k. Hahahahaha AND YESSSSSSSS 2 DOWN, 3 MORE TO GOOO! AND THEN IT'S RAYA! YAYAYAYAYAY!!! SO HAPPY EXCITED! CAN'T WAITTT :D

Maybe I should really let go and move on? It's easier said than done, but I'm willing to try. But how can I just let go of... Us? Well, I guess you moved on, maybe I should too? Sigh. Maybe it's time I really let go..............

2011-08-23T22:18:00.004+08:00

CRAZY BOYS!

HIYA! These few days are um kinda exciting and fun for me? Hehhhhhhhh I still love my babies! Tml's science UT. Guess Imma flunk it? Lol k. Deactivated FB too, so yeahhhhhhh. But so many people asked me to reactivate it back. :/ This is what happens when you're the photographer for almost everythingggggg! Been texting H these few days, I think he's very sweet! And he's very different when it gets late at night! I like it when he gets annoyed too! Hehehe love him lah! <3 And yeah, Y too. He's funny and malay-ish and lame at times. He likes to bite me too! T.T Okey lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. All my babies, of course I like to talk to them right? Hehehehe

But, amidst all these, I still miss you. You took my heart along with you when you left, I can't love anyone other than you. Sigh, I'm still wishing that you'll come back. Others may say you're not worth it, but baby to me, you're my all.

2011-08-12T21:57:00.004+08:00

OUR LOVELY BABIES!

Been hanging out with the class alotttt! Totally love them! They're like the sunshine in my rain. I love them maxxxxxxxx. But it's so sadddd, we're gonna be separated after Monday :( I'm really gonna miss them so much, especially all those prominent ones! Gonna miss my since-first-day bimbos, Ting and Ganneh so damn much! Racial Harmony!! ;) And not to forget Riri, and Jizz too! Omg, I've grown attached to so many of them, can't bear to leave them! Been hugging like everyone nowadays, I just love hugs! Especially those long ones, and when the other person hugs you so tightly and lifts you up! Ganneh and Yan did that! Was so damn awesome, I really love that feeling! Omg, I think I'll cry on monday! :((( I really love them so much, been so close, now we're gonna separate. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh, but nonetheless, I still hope everyone does well for their UT3 to pull up their other marks! I luv you guys deep deep! Please don't forget each other even after separated okey!

Ohhhhhh, I love Weng's new hair, so handsome!!! And, JJ when he spiked up his hair! Our boys are always handsome actually!!!!! Hehehehe and me and Yan have the same profile picture! Which makes it kinda confusing, cause I keep thinking it was my statuses when they were Yan's! Hahahaha okey that's alllllllllllll, bye! :D

2011-08-07T13:47:00.004+08:00

SOME OVERDUE-D PHOTOS!

Bowling with E24A:

SILOSO WITH E24A:

2011-08-07T13:35:00.004+08:00

Been more than a month since I blogged, which also means been more than a month since you've left.... My heart still yearns for you. To think that you actually came back for awhile, and then disappeared again. It makes me miss you more. Sighhhhhhhhh. I still do love you.... I just don't understand you sometimes. And I'd really give anything just to have you back on my side no matter what happened and no matter what people said. But it's all impossible.

2011-06-30T14:14:00.001+08:00

I just don't understand you. You're always wavering your feelings. I knew it was coming but I tried my best to prevent it :'(

2011-06-16T22:43:00.002+08:00

omg baby so cute hehehe

HI YEOM! Today was a veryveryvery tiring day for me, actually everyday of this week :/ omgggggggggg is thr something wrong with me? Super tired, didn't go for training today :'( Programming sucks. Couldn't understand a single thing!

2011-06-16T00:00:00.003+08:00

HI YEOM! Hehe, didn't update ytd cause was too tired, didn't even do my RJ and quiz. GG! Today had communication, nothing much. Stayed in class after school for awhile, watched "Last excorsism" with Ganesan, Sak, Aishah, Hassan, Sufian, Melvyn. And Jing Ri, tho he left halfway! Haha, freaking shocking and gross! My heart nearly stopped and jumped out of my body! Esp when ASSHOLE Hassan freaking scared us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, yea didn't go for the bbq, cause was too tired. Went home and now, gonna turn in soon! ;) Baby, not coming home tonight too booooooooooooo!

So yea, after rugby training, went to imm to meet my babos! And you know what! I was supposed to alight at jurong east and walk/bus-ed to imm. But I went to take the train to joo koon(cause thats whr I'll always take) luckily I realised early and alighted at chinese garden and went back to jurong east. Then when it reached jurong east, I was busy tweeting. After a long time then I realised I had to alight. Wtffffffffffff I freaking noob siaaaaaa! So embarrassing sia! Met my babos! love them so much! Miss them fucking much too! Grr, after a longggggggggg time then we got to meet! Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okey, then reached home at around 11 plus, no time do RJ -.- So didn't do lor!

Well I guess I'm off now! If not, I'll be late again tml! Goodnight, bye yeom! <3

OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! 2PM RELEASED THEIR TEASER ALRD WTFWTFWTF!!!!!!! AND THE PLATE OF THE LIMO IS OBVIOUSLY SINGAPORE'S PLATE AND IT WAS SHOT AT ZOUK! WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!! SO NEAR YET SO FAR :'(

lika zombie

2011-06-13T21:35:00.003+08:00

okey, HI! :) Dita brought her instax cam to school today, so we took photos. Haha sadly, thr were only four films left. Next time we bring our own film okey! Hehehehe. So yea, today was freaking tiring and sleepy. My fault for sleeping late anw. Went home, bathed and slept. woke up at 9.30pm just now to do homeworks. Not gonna study anymore. Sigh, to tired!

So yea, was supposed to meet Rif, but Rif's uncle got into a coma after involving in an accident ytd. But yea, i understand. Since family comes first. Hope everything's alright on his side thr. He seems a little tired tho :( But gotta admit, I do miss him alot. :( Nevermind, thr's always next time right? Hopefully...

Er, so after he told me cancelled, went to lepak with the usuals in class and school. Ghost story telling session in class sth happened that made me scream hahaha. Shocked, not scared. Kinda creepy stories they've got. I've only some from what I hear. Don't really wanna experience it! Hehehehe, so that's about all? Yep, thanks for sparing your time to read my nonsense! Hehehe

Oh yea, thr's rugby training tml. I think hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

boring

2011-06-13T10:53:00.002+08:00

Afternoon! ;) Neh, boring science now! Feel like sleeping! Told Rif was gonna sleep at around 12am just now but slept at 3.30am instead, less than 2 hours of sleep. Nearly late to school, forgot to eat vitamin c, forgot to bring bottle :/ Maybe gonna meet later after school. Forgot to ask mum and dad money to top up ez link. Siannnnnnnnnnnnn gonna buy the concession again soon! ;)

2011-06-12T16:35:00.001+08:00

Okey. So I read my last posts before leaving this blog. And I think I was so kiddy last time and lame. Hahahahaha okey lazy delete-.-

BAJU KURUNG

2011-06-12T16:14:00.005+08:00

Crazy girls

little sister.

Haha look how much we look alike! Twins!

With the penantinz! hehe!

yep, so my saturday was spent waking up late, staying at home till the late afternoon and heading out to the east for Abang Hairul's mom's wedding! Had lotsa fun there! Check out my FB for more photos! Hehe, :)

zzz

2010-02-13T17:52:00.001+08:00

i lost my wallet with my IC inside. Fuck. k bye.

backxz!

2010-02-11T18:46:00.005+08:00

find me^^

well, whaddya know!
im back and kickin again! comp's finally okey.
but for godsake, it's laggy and being such an arse!

been coping well with studies now. my design journal v.pretty lehhhhhhh^^
okey. bye.

hihihi:)

2009-12-22T14:41:00.007+08:00

haha, i miss my brown eyes^^

hihihihi:) gonna go out these few days gonna get a new number/phone tml heh heh. so sister got into westwood. harhar. only one year same school then i graduate. that is IF i pass my Os. hoho. gonna get christmas presentsssssssss at vivo later on, alrd ordered cakes and fooooooooood. so 25th's gonna be a blast, minus two families:'(

so yeahhh, created tumblr. for fun>>tumblr. so the cacatz siaaa. herherrr. gonna meet my two bestfs sooooooonest! lovelove:))))))

homeszx

2009-12-18T15:36:00.004+08:00

aaaaaaah, finally can sleep with my ben10 bedsheet^^ hoho. back from minah's house, meeting the cousins tml. yesssssssa! g-going to arab street for eateateat and singsingsing and maybe sheeshasheeshasheesha:)))) cause minahh's family are gg to london:((((( i want to go holiday tooooo:( im brokebrokebroke. only have five dollars given by cik ros:(

went to school to collect books with dad today. haha, william was thr. then bought uniform. waa, the skirt so long. tsk. size 25 eh. pfft. then went to jurong east. bought chickenchicken ricerice. haha. dad asked the person to give extraextra sambal and ask for kicap. haha. then headed home. im v.sleepy today. why? cause my air conditioner wasnt functioning as it should. so i couldnt sleep. kns.

have to finish homeworks soon. dangggggggggggggg. what should i wear tml? herher:DDDDD

"see, haikal wear trousers!" cute sungguh:>

:))))))))

2009-12-15T14:33:00.003+08:00

hi. at minahh's house since last two days, sleepover. maybe till tml cause atiqah and fatimah's coming over too. quite bored. minahh's out in school. dang! ive totally forgotten about homeworks. im only studying, but not doing homeworks._.

aww, bestf juliana's sweet eh. for the poem and misses all. i miss you and love you bestf. as well as aishah bestf. maybe afterthis sleepover, gg to meet some people. hmmz, but hafta plan to start on assignments and stuffs first. shite, and french horn's outing too. im running out of $$, dad's gg for operation on 23rd-mum's birthday, minahh's family is gg to london on 22nd till 26th, haikal's gg on 23rd to KL, 23rd hafta to go too sister's secondary school. none worth looking forward to. pfffft. wish my family could go on a holiday:(

on the brightside, danny's back, again, for a shortwhile till tml:) sooooooo happyyyy ehh. hahaha. and poor epul has to work butt off every night/morning. take carez ehh:)))

whywhywhy arent you people online-ing? faster come online!!!!!! hoho:)

:)

2009-12-13T15:45:00.002+08:00

changed skin, decided to quit tagboard, since thr're comments. waiting for hazirah and aishah to upload pictures. sleeping over at bananasxz's crib :)))))))))))))))))

awesomezts:)

2009-12-11T18:15:00.005+08:00

a well-spent day with awesomezts:)))) aishah came up at my house first then we went to school then to kfc at gp ville cc. funnayyee lah haha. she went to meet juliana, i went to meet hazirah:) topped up ezlink
went to vivo, walkwalk, cuci mata, buy drinks, play with water. not much money spent, which is good cause im a spendthrift. tsk. k whatev. haha finally everything's over. AWESOME.pictures on my fb and some with aishah/hazirah:)

my biggest mistake

2009-12-09T14:13:00.004+08:00

my biggest mistake was to ever trust you. you said it yourself, and to the whole world that it's useless to be my____. does everyone have to know about it? you just ask someone to tell me right? so what's the point of us being together when you dont understand my situation and would even tell the people on fb about it? k, whatev. all these are not needed. this suck. i hate you, ever more. pfffffffft.

2009-12-07T18:26:00.002+08:00

i cant believe how gullible i was. you suck. but luckily i had an assurance from Zy bestf ytd night. good thing i texted her eh. if not, i'll not be realising that person's attitude. love you awesome bestf, gotta meetup soon tho. im starting back school soon, v.soon. i miss D:(

2009-12-07T17:16:00.003+08:00

this is boring and stupid. pfft. wish school's starting anytime soon. wont be so petty and talk about airconditioned rooms. i miss gg to school and seeing my friends. gonna buy books with dad tml, finally. someone's a faker, liar, poser. empty promises. guess promises are suppose to be broken after all. pfft. hmmz, i want to go out. oh yah, knnpcb lionking sucks. me and minahh and my parents talked about him. i miss being happy like this haha. so yeahhh, posts are gonna be a lot shorter than they used to in my blog. :)

2009-12-05T15:27:00.003+08:00

new moon with family ytd. hot taylor lautner. big tiff with someone, ._. wished ben10 would cheer me up. heh heh. danny went back in tdy:( 2 more mths. cousin dani's birthday tdy, happy 21st birthday:) dad's having his eye ops on 23rd._. mum's birthday. and we have to go to sister's school to buy the books and all. pffft, bad timing. i miss dad. he's working tdy, should be back home anytime now. okay bye.

hecitc weekend

2009-11-30T13:00:00.005+08:00

hi. so friday was hrh. super much fun with cousins and all. had a blast. pictures on fb, some are on minahh's cam. then sat, woke up at 12noon. haha, i slept for twelve hours ley, about thr. then me little sister kak syida kak syeema went to jp to shopshop and walkwalk. bought chewy jr, yami yoghurt, a bag, sprays and all. then went home, changed, went to tampines safra for bowling and met the others. v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.fun! esp, the fusball part. shoutings and screamings came, esp from me. other people in the place kept looking at us. hahah. fun ehhhh. two hectic and fun days in a row. awesome. then sun went to msia. wanted to go to the chendol place but closed, both. haiyaaaa. then we went to the pasar mlm thr. overall, enjoyable. but didnt enjoy the ride back home. due to something/SOMEONE. pfft. went to school for awhile just now, band room was open so decided to take pencil case home, since everyth IS in thr. some more ben10 pencil case. ive a new addiction; hanjie. i have to get that game on my nitendo and i have to get the new psp go! rlyrlyrly. i need that hanjie booooooookkkkkk! :))))))))) and oh, ive finished reading ps i love you. it teared me up and broke me down. super nice. im gonna read it again and again! :)))))))))))

hi.

2009-11-27T00:13:00.004+08:00

hi. im back. and im szuper tired. and my ppd's bloody hell low. fuck it. b's having a relationship prob with her boyf eh. cheerup eh? movie marathon next sat:))) went to jp with dad after gg msia. both are tired and both hafta do the job. wow, sister got third in class for psle, 213. congrats eh. come, go my school = "dont want ah. i want to go yuhua" hmphfft! any how, liverpool's out. sad eh? stupid big boss. more monayye for the budget lah. bloody hell. im moody tdy. i cried, i laughed, i jump, i sing, i smiled, im sick for god's sake. damn it. and ohh, bestf Zy's gg batam tml and will only be back on the fourteenth, so saadd. at last got to see you just now. how much did your sister get? and last long. have fun. :))) bloody hell, so sleepy yet hafta help with haji's and sister's party. come onnnnnnn! i neeed sleeeeeeep. ohmygay, i havent touched my horn. need to do it soon, but when? ... fuck havent buy present. shite.

selamat hari raya haji!
happy twelth birthday little sister.

2009-11-25T19:28:00.003+08:00

oh, forgot. will be gg to msia tml. so dont text:)

2009-11-25T19:08:00.003+08:00

grr, so tired. i feel like vomiting every now and then. sighhh. maybe cause i miss my bestf and all. i realised i have more than two bestf, and all are trustworthy. hmmz. and so happy to be able to meet bestf on next wed! haiyaa, so sad hyd bby couldnt make it :'( walau! minahh's changing her phone this sat. i need monayyeeee people, monayye! some people ah, dont let me work then dont want give me money some more. crazy ah. how to survive siaa???? KIMZ.

wayyyyyyyy:)

2009-11-24T11:48:00.005+08:00

BOOMZ

hi. im bored. hungryyyyyyyy also. i am a merlion. HAHA. :D yday, i told dad everything-well, almost everything :D. felt better. hmmz, hahah. will be having band tml, sister's having her grad lunch tml, she'll bring the camera:( and i'll be meeting someone tml! :))) will be following parents and little sister to collect her psle results on thurs. then maybe gg malaysia eh, not sure :/ friday, cousins/little sister's friends are coming for hari raya haji cum little sister's birthday celebration. i bet, only chinese friends are coming tho. sat gg out with cousins for pool/bowling/karaoke. waa, awesome. so long never go out with them. sunday madr. sigh, have to present/finish our project. andand, cant wait to meet, dearest bestf next week! :DDDDD

wow, so colourful:)))))))))

hi

2009-11-23T17:02:00.004+08:00

hi. so im back, finally? haha. hectic week, yeahhh. so imissed school/band tdy. fuck the fever, heheh. tuesday, went for band. wed, band drained the life out of me and it sucked. thurs, exchange. aww. rasyiqah's v.cute eh. haiyaa. hahah. friday, sleep at home. sat, went out in the morning to collect dad's new passport. wow, super different. then we went to marina barrage, like finally? haiyooo. then we went shopping at bugis. convinced mum to go thr as she wants to buy a long dress and little sister needs to buy her grad lunch dress. so we went to bugis, i bought a blouse for myself and two ben10 watches, one's for haikal, another's for me :) pretty siaa the watch:))))) then went to buy little sister's dress. v.fussy ah she. then bought mum's long dress. she also, super fussy. i only looked once and chose my blouse. then me and dad went walking by ourselves when little sister and mum bought their stuffs. then went to MacKenzie road to have our lunch. yummy, niceee! awesome siaa. then we went back home to take haikal's ben10 bag and grandma and bibik. then we headed down to haikal's house, chatted and all that. then went to cik ana's house after maghrib. haikal followed us, instead of his parents. suke pulak. haha. waa, he is absolutely happy to get his bag he kept on saying "see, ben10 bag" "aunty syaza, where's your watch" "see the light" hahah. cute ahhhh, then played with him and all, minahh went home after that. she wore the dress that little sister initially wanted to buy but changed her mind. hahaha. then we went home at ard 10/11, forgot.

oh, then yesterday was shafiq's birthday. haha. eeyer, so old. seventeen alrd. hahah. he never go out and celebrate you know, only go jogging._. aiyo, should go celebrate lah, your birthday eh. haha. waa, and everytime threaten me some more, for not eating. pfft. haahah. and he is v.lame haha, sama lah tuh eh. haha. eh, your birthday present when want to take lah alamak. hahahaha. cant say dont want hor. :D happy seventeenth birthday:)

tdy, didnt go to school, fever. haiyaaaaa. thankyou for posting dearest Aishah bestf, thurs k? :)

2009-11-23T14:16:00.004+08:00

hi earthworld:]
aishah here, syaza bby is very lazy to update her own blog you know. She said she have many things to do , but she's playing happy aquarium. what the hell-o :D I miss this cute girl very much, do you know that ? We will be dating very soon. HAHA. Shopping you know. okay i think that's enough. hehe. idk what to update for this lazy girl also. okay done.
i love syaza bestf:]

awesome/suck.

2009-11-16T16:01:00.007+08:00

okay, three more months.
five months has passed.
i was able to wait for five months,
it wouldnt hurt me to wait another three more months.
im v.excited bout it!
:)

supposed kendarats, heh.our side with senduks and all.
cousin/makciks after a tiring day.haikal.ilhan.maot peyh. hah
with fatimah.

kak dillah's wedding was awesome.
cause we cousins were entertaining ourselves.
we were suppose to be kendarats to but we lepaklepaked instead.
minah said "eh i do my job k, i camerawoman!"
yaya.
the awesomest(?) part was when the groom came with his side.
our side prepared with all the senduks, etc.
the groom came with his gang of mat motor, err-.-
semua action melebih, pdhl triangle plate.___.
oh, cake liverpool siol.
maotz to the max.
haikal was v.v.v.v moody and hyper at times.
and ilhan was being a good abang or so,
sharing his scooter and all with haikal and others
haiyaaa. didnt took much pictures cause i didnt bring camera on sat,
oops. heh.
i want pictures of me and minah!
hahahahahahahah.
pictures will be uploaded on fb:)

and migraines suck. why should i have the migraines at these times, unfair. tsk.
i miss school v. much. rly seh. haiz. i miss duhamel's too :(

happy aquarium

2009-11-13T16:58:00.001+08:00

currently playing happy aquarium on fb.
i think i am addicted to it.
wow.

2009-11-13T14:51:00.001+08:00

finally, changed skin. the one before this was v.messy, not the blue writings.

"forget about your boyfriend"

2009-11-13T12:30:00.003+08:00

dad's operation is postponed.
didnt go to school tdy.
still feeling despondent about this week,
fortunately, cousins are coming tml too.
me and minah will be wearing same colours for tml and sun. BOOMZ.
"brad pitt" is going to be there too!
gonna get JP'S book from minah tml.
overall weekends, spoilt. but cousins will be best.

realised i missed out some parts in my posts.
monday, typical day. went for band in the afternoon, started to have migraines.
the others said i looked very sick._.
tuesday, didnt come school due to migraine-.-
wednesday, went to school, didnt go for band.
went to polyckinic with two best people, Zy and Saz.
funny things happened. lolz.
thursday, went home since ended at 1130.
siti went to my house to talk awhile,
went back for our cca at ard one.
didnt come school tdy.
pathetic week.

my eyes are swollen due to ytd.
tuesday's still on!
best.

i miss jericho, v.much

suck ahhhhh

2009-11-12T18:13:00.003+08:00

suck. well, no choice. insyaallah, dad's operation will be okay. bear with it now. weekend's gonna suck i guess. on the verge of giving up on ensemble. dont know why. BIG HAIZ.______. feel like working, but then again, maybe not. aaaaaah, shite. life's unfair. i know

eeww.

2009-11-11T19:14:00.003+08:00

sighhhhhh, this week's a total turn off. mon-sick, tues-sick, wed-partially sick, tml-?, fri-?

shite, and cousin's getting married. sucha spoiler. spoil my plans, totally.

was suppose to go see KAMSANI on sat, but didnt get to. soccer, byebye.

and bananasxz, can we not go on sat/come later?

waa piang, my plans have to be goners this time.

i think i'll be wearing brown eh.

hmmmz.

rahhh, and got to know dad's gg to have his operation on tuesday.

which is the day im going out with my superman.

sigh, and the next day's mum and dad's anniversary.

aww, i want to make a suprise for them. how?

i think ive an idea. i need some help tho.

im so excited for wed! :DDDDD

i cant wait for tuesday too! <3

im only gonna breakbreak your breakbreak your heart:D

2009-11-10T13:40:00.001+08:00

i love this picture:)

hi

2009-11-10T12:00:00.001+08:00

so just pull the trigger

ass,

2009-10-27T16:08:00.003+08:00

hi. so, fifteen alrd. more stress ehhhh? hahahah. this year's birthday aint fun. will be going out with Saz and Zyra soon(: awesome. i wish to watch ben10 here in singapore :( pictures on fb. aww, and two people were touched and cried cause of my birthday present to them. happy birthday Siti and Lulu. dont cry anymore lah hahahah. and guess what? i got promoted to sec four exp. wish i could get retained. muchmuch better. okay, going out with parents, bye!:)

baby

2009-10-23T17:51:00.002+08:00

and dearest Saz, cheer up:) sorry didnt come band tdy.

i mabuk lah. hahah. miss you baby!

die.

2009-10-23T17:17:00.003+08:00

hi. dont text me thru my number anymore. complicated and long story. ive a new number alrd, ask me thru msn. okay thanks:)

i loveeeeee this guyyyy!

ben10's coming singapore, someone's buying me tix *winkwink* oh and ya, sun's cancelled. cause of my results. mum and dad asked me to pray hard that teachers would help me to go up sec four. but i wouldnt want to. cause i cant even cope this year and you still want me to go sec four and catch with sec three work and take Os? cmi ah eh. harangues from parents ytd, about everyth. i think we should just be friends. i'll tell you everyth when i get the chance to.

3 m o r e d a y s !

feel my despondencyyyyy,

2009-10-21T16:05:00.006+08:00

shiattez, karma has it. serves me right. shouldve concentrated a v.long time ago. no point regretting everything now, it's too late. im giving up on you. im giving up on myself. im giving up on everything. as expected, seeyou in 3exp/4na next year!

out to rp with ♥Gundu. gosh, i miss her. friday eh? okay awesome. we were lateee, very. reached rp, find Zyra, poked her she turned she shouted my name and screamed. hahahah. suprisesuprise ^^ then suprised Saz next. didnt expect me to come eh? hahahah. walked ard, saw some seniors frm westwood. played with ice, chatted with yong chuan and fifi and Gundu-stop showing off and being a parrot siaa lyc. hahahahah. fifi tak baik siaa. lol. then went home with Zyra and Saz. bought apple pie with Saz, Zyra bought chewy junior. gave Zyra my last stick cause im stopping-err, yah. since Aishah and Gundu dont like me smoking. so... okay pictures.

the one with amirul aint nice. hahahahah:)

okay, dah. Zyra, stop persuading me. ttys, soonest.

baby dont worry, you are my only. ah? righttttttttt.

[edited/]

err, results... i think im feeling Saz despondency and it aint good. i like Gundu's phrase; Fuckshitdie. all in one.

iloveyou

2009-10-16T17:24:00.004+08:00

im sorry i couldnt be there for you,

hope your brother will recover soon.

im sorry im not good at this.

all the best for tommorow's match:>

cheer up baby,

iloveyou.

Juliana posting .

2009-10-14T17:46:00.002+08:00

Heyloooo readers^^ Juliana here. Syaza asked me to post for her bloggy so here i am. She's bz with some stuff so hope u guys understnd tht. Anw she's doing fine but i currently miss Syaza]: Tooo bad, nvm at school we can meet & smile or say hi^^ Hahaha. I love this Syaza cause she's friendly,cute,understanding & cheerful. Thts abt all then you all. Buhbye & TC[:

jb's

2009-10-13T14:58:00.004+08:00

i really had fun ytd :) and we pratically had two 'stalkers' HARHAR! and besides sth happened while i was doing my physics paper ytd, some would know. shouldnt elaborate more.

met Zyra at eleven just now, talked at the staircase, little sister went out, went into my house, showed some pictures of two people, dad came home, three of us ate, dad fixed the lights, dad went back to work, me and Zyra chatted, went down to gp to meet Rusydi, headed home, met up with Siti at the traffic light, chatted, home.

tml's oral. hope i do well and not break down.

thurs's d&t. i have to do well.

friday no school. out with Saz!

COUSIN SYIDA AND BANANASXZ AND CIK ANA AND TWO YEAR OLD HAIKAL'S COMING LATER ON! CANT WAIT TO GO OUT WITH THEM. FASTER COME FASTER COME:>

this is so kool! <3

after what has happened, everything got better for me.

best comforter.

2009-10-12T18:47:00.011+08:00

best day ever, after a period of stressing. and a series of v.v.v.unfortunate events.

met Zyra and Saz before that,

quite happy though.

maybe im doing fine without you

2009-10-11T11:47:00.000+08:00

DANNY'S BACK,

FOR A V.V.V SHORT PERIOD OF TIME.

gibston's.

2009-10-09T16:57:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD. hahah. sorry my dearest torres, happy two days late birthday wish eh? i lost your contact howhowhow? all the best for your prelims and Os! must meet me soon okay gibston? smiles ^^

finally had good laughs and a break from all those stress-related stuff with Saz just now. it's good to have a friend who understands you best and lead you the right way. love you Saz. i miss A:(

aww, hahahahah.

imissyouv.much:(

2009-10-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

i think,

i need sometime alone.

i need a break but i have to wait till eoy ends.

i need it NOW

how?

Believe.

2009-10-08T13:26:00.000+08:00

im trying my best, not gonna give up. others can wait, i'll sacrifice time for the best.

i want to prove them wrong, that i can make it,

i know i can,

believe it.

i dont know why, everything's going haywire. it's unxpected. i doubt that everything's going to be alright anytime. it'll just get worse when time passes. i feel that im a burden. maybe i am? im doing my best in eoy, yet you dont trust me. how am i suppose to study at home when in the first place, we dont have peace. you tell me how. you expect me to study at home, dont have to consult my teachers. i ask you, are gonna help when i have doubts and queries?

yes, we may have no troubles/arent as bad as these. but i want you to realise who is the cause of it. i believe you still wont. stop throwing your tantrums at mewhen you;re the one in wrong. im worrying about my eoy and here you are talking crap to me, when i couldve been studying for my eoys. and yet, if i get my results bad, you'll come after with a dagger and threaten me. have you thought about youve contributed to result i this? i doubt so, cause if you have, you wouldnt be selfish and do whatever you want to do without thinking about others feelings.

stop making wild accusations. i didnt means i did not. have you thought about asking/accusing the younger one instead of me? maybe you did it but didnt want to admit. stop thinking that you're bloody frigging hell right cause you aint. i fear writing this soon enough cause we were very close. i dont know what happened, but i know we're drifting. things weren't like this before. and now during exams only you're starting to show your wild side? i dont hate you for what/who you are, i think im becoming indifferent towards you, which it shouldnt be.

have you thought about your attitude instead of mine? you tell me that i aint polite, well you aint even 0.000000000000000000000001 times better than me, so stop judging. you're starting to be judgemental, so can i. have you thought about what's ruining us? why dad's always mad? think bout it. cause even if you think for the zillionth time, i believe you'll still deny everything ive said here.

nowadays, everyday, someone keeps pissing me off. everyday i'll cry alone. why? cause noone's here. everyone's busy with their own things, which is logical cause it's eoy now. but im lcky to have Saz by my side. telling her problems and her giving me solutions made me realise what a true she is. sometimes, sharing isnt enough. i think i have to talk to the person him/herself. ive been studying during mornings alot and dad hasnt been approving yet.

everybody changes, dad isnt close with me anymore. he isnt willing to share with me anymore, he sides mum best. mum's view of me is becoming worse, dont know why but i know i havent changed. bananasxz's busy with her stuff, i cant get her.

im starting afresh. im doing my best in everything. im sorry if i dont entertain you or anyth anymore love, im trying to change the perceptions of some people.

i dont know why, i feel sad. home's suppose to be heaven but i dont think so, since all that has happened. but i know i wont bring all that to school. im still gonna have fun with what/who i have in/out of school. cause i know that's what i wont have at home.